Friday, September 30, 2005
hmmm...helped sister polished her nails right after i bathe..cos i m sure i m awake..hmmm...today went for cello lesson at 12 and was home at 2pm and had my lunch and protein drink...hmmm...den on the tv and found the shows boring so i off it and on my computer...hmmm...den went msn and maple..den only killed a bit den sian le so never play le...hmmm...den walk arounf den came to blog...real sian cos 6pm still gt a few hrs away...lolz...hmmm...hmmm...playing alone realli is boring...hmmm...but no choice ma..nobody wan pei mi play..hahaz...hmmm...nth else to update about...hmmm...yst nite felt a chill thru my spine..hmmm...suddenly awake from my happiness dream land..my blessed feelings are gone and i m back to reality tt he dun like mi...hmmm..my body..my soul...my mind..my heart...my feelings...my emotions...my everything...is all empty...no feeling of anything at all..i was very happy tt i can go out today wif my beloved frens..but i dun feel anything now..not at all...i dun feel happi at all...my moods gone..gone deep down..washed away...my souls with him..not leaving any second...i have no idea wat is this all about..m i letting go already or m i falling too deep...i have no idea..but at this very second i noe my soul is destroyed by him....i know the fact of every single thing in my life...i noe his hrt is wif the other gal..i noe i m being very one-sided...and this has left mi with only 1 choice...and tt is to let go...to give up..and i noe i m going to do it and i noe i can do it...like i did for the someone whom i liked for 3 yrs...hmmm...and this time round...i noe it will not take mi long to do it...2 weeks will be more than enuf..after sat..monday will be the first the of the 2 weeks deadline...i will mit it and i will succeed...i can make myself clear about who i like means i can make sure who i will give up on...as for lab boy..i muz say its realli the someone whom i wanted to use to replace my emptiness...i fell for "mb" quite long ago...i juz din realise it until i realise i.....i..........haiz..i noe is enuf...tts all...i m someone who do wat i thnk is rite..and i m going to only listen to myself....i will solve everything myself..in my dark...quiet corner...wItCh Jun:thanks lots and sorry lots too...AmaNdA:sMileZz...(",)
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