Friday, November 11, 2005
hmmm...its been days since i last blogged...hmmm..cos i was busy and yst was my 12th chemo...the last of the 6 course medicine....hmmm...after my white blood cells recover...i will be going for a PET scan...if the results is good...i will proceed to the transplant le worhz...hmmm...b4 my transplant i will haf like 2 wks to be free from all medication at needles...hmmm...so at this 2 weeks i will ask all my frens out...lolz...i wan do everything i yearn to...and eat all i wan eat...hmmm...bcos after the transplant...i haf to eat food tt is very very clean and only certain food...and i cannot go out...until like i dunno how long..shld be half a year...hmmm...days b4...i bought a pink winter hat in maple....so nice..love it alot...lolz...hmmm...still hunting for pan lid....hmmm...well i forgt wat i wan blog le ehz...lolz...cos alot things say but i forgt...lolz...hmmm...on wednesay...mi went marina wif mama and bought 3 top...2 skirts...lolz...hmmm....so happy..skirts...lolz....nowadays i only wear skirts...dunno y...simply love to wear...lolz...hmmm...go out i only look at skirts...lolz....hmmm...hmmm...yst only had breakfast...till now oso nv eat at all...cos i gt no appetite at all...hmmm...drink oso like water cannot go down...hmmm..hand cannot stress oso...cos had chemo yst..the veins are hurt...so gt abit painful...hmmm...whether i will be able go sch nxt yr...nvm le lahz...now i can only let my body decide le....hmmm...need a wig soon le..lolz...hair dropping and droppin..till its so little tt i can see my head!!hmmm...haiz...but hair is not the important thing lahz...hmm..hmmm....jellybean ah jellybean.....why....haiz..i m missing u ehz...but u lehz..missing someone else...hmmm....but its okie...cos the words u said tt day is the greatest encouragement given...hmmm...soon i wun be able to look at u smile le...hmmm..and i wun noe if u feeling upset not..so i really wish wif all my heart..u'll be real happy and tt gal will accept u...hmmm...haiz....life is so unpredictable..yst gt a gal who went thru transplant toked to me...she said everything about the transplant..it is smth tt is very tough...hmm...she said tt u wun be able to eat cos ur mouth will be so painful tt u cun drink nor eat...hmmm...and they will put verything as iv..and there will be like lots of packet of water hanging up going into u...hmm...and it will be like how cheerful de ren..like she oso used to be as positive and cheerful like me...but the transplant made her into another person..she say u ll go mad and tok nonsense and u hallucinate....hmmm...and u dunno y u r like tt...and u dunno y u feel like its the end of the world...u will feel tt u dunno if u will be able to overcome it not...hmmm..and it will abt 60 day u r like tt...hmmm...once u pass the 100 days...means u r safe...hmmm....how can someone pass it..its the encouragement and determination...hmmm..but i can surely make it..cos i still wan see jellybean smile...hmmm...and i wan y family and frens to not worry abt mi...and see them smile when i recover..and all go for good food together...and oso overseas...hmmm...hmmm...suddenly...i feel i wun fall for anyone else...hmmm...he is so diff fom al other i fell for..and...i juz dunno...hmmm...i guess till the end of time...i only like u...
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