Monday, November 07, 2005
hmmm..today woke at 7.40am...sis woke mi when she going school..cos i told her to..cos i want play maple to hunt for smth...cos early den nobody ma..hmmm..i gt nth say abt my life today cos nth happened except maple maintenance...now i so bored...hmmm...haiz..i m feeling so sian...kip thnking of tt sight tt happened tt very day....hmmm..i cun forget it..i tried so hard to forget but i simply cun do it...i guess i m really falling deep...i want try stop it but it dun seem work..although my "senses" are back but........my strong will of getting over someone has weaken...hmmm...the cards sayings gave mi hope...but even if i believe in the cards...i haf to wait till it really happens....hmmm.whether it will depends on the steps i take...any wrong step will change everything...hmmm....well...i dunno how too....i m confused...still trying get an idea of wat i really wants..hmmm...maybe i need time ba....even hough its a secret tt only sis...amanda...yd...and jun knows...and of cos mi and my teddy bears....hmmm.....however....i feel he knows....hmmm...but it oso seems tt he dun...and seemed tt someone has sense it but not him..someone else...m i too obvious??if he knows den it surely is my eyes betrayed me....my eyes r always betraying me....haiz...this is bad...hmmm....now although i juz concentrate on my health...but i dun understand concentrate on wat...cos i cun do anything except medication...hmmm....well...i simply miss him...but so wat lehz....hmmm...its one-sided...IT IS STUPID!!!!!hmmm.....-*zhen ai shi bu neng bei fang qi de...neng fang qi de jiu bu jiao zhuo zhen ai....jiu suan ni ba ta dui diao 100 ci...ta hai shi hui hui dao wo shen bian...zhan zai zhen ai mian qian.....wo ye shi yi xi wang rang zhen ai yong bao de ren.....*-haiz..where r u???i wun confess to u...cos it will make things worse and many ppl will be in a very difficult position...hmmm...i support u..one day tt gal will be urs...
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