Sunday, December 04, 2005
second entry of the day.....and yes if u see my n ick....things r getting out of hands...he is so near mi but so far in fact...hmmm...many happened...everything bad happened....i failed to protect my own secret...its become smth tt he knows...so wat can i do...?i dunno too....he is caring and getting more caring to mi and tts not very good for mi..i m falling deeper and deeper as he cares more...ppl might think he muz be playing arnd fooling u..but i can guarantee...he is definately a 100% nice guy and he is not the kind tt will go out hurting gals...hmmm...well...i did all this to myself...i m getting myself into trouble...its all my fault...nobodys at fault juz mi myself...the stoopid and ugly gal tts getting herself into trouble...today maple..was bad...cos of smth...and at the end of the day when i was logging off juz now..gt an idiot came to provoke mi..i m not in a gd mood and he came to provoke and oh goodness me...i used vulgurities...after so long...hmmm..i hate to use these words but tt idiot forced mi...i really din want use it but my hands juz wun stop myself from going on to type it our..and a bitch too...hmmm...both r les and gays to mi...hmmm...well...i dunno wats gt into mi...seriously...jie fu and i concluded tt he knows..and tts it...he knows..i m goner...hmmm...but i really dunno how now...so i said i wun tell him unless he opens his mouth..and i noe him..he will nv open his mouth to ask..so it is obvious tt i m saying i will nv let him noe...i will continue acting as if nth is wrng..he is wrng tt i like him...tts it...i juz hope he finds the one and be happy...hmmm....i m someone who will nv gif anyone happiness...i guess i m meant to live on my own...everyone is surely getting irritated by me recently bcos i cun help myself so i find ppl tok...so i m sorry...i wun bark on u all le...i will thnk myself..if i cun i will suffer alone den...
11:00 pm
