Wednesday, January 11, 2006
hmm...this few days nth lorhz..hmm...today decided to make her for my mage..hahaz...make and make..and at long last gt a hair tt looks at least better...hmm...will update a pic soon on friendster of the new hairstyle..lolz..haven update but will..thnk tml....hmmm...today jie fu and jia en came over to play bridge..and had dinner...hmm...den bla bla...and jia en so so so so evil...bully my mao mao and gt WACKED by mi..no lahz...pinch niahz...oopz..i den eveil rite..okie lahz..i m evil and bad..hmm...tts me...evil and bad...tts y me ren yao ma..hahahaz....i live for myself not for others..so lalalalal!!!i do watever i thnk is right so...is it ur problem??or is it my problem??hahahhaz....i m mad today lahz...hmm..juz smth happened tts y i m being very diff...suddenly...i suddenly feel stupid and i thnk i actually destroyd my everything cos of wat i did...hmm...i m real idiot..i m starting to hate myself...hmmm..maybe i m juz simply not suited to be in love wif anyone...hmm..i m useless...hmm...things juz happen suddenly..so i haf to take it and overcome it..maybe i m juz lucky tt i m prepared...hmm...or maybe i simply went thru enuf to haf the experience to cope it...hmm...well...it all doesn't matter anymore...hmm...hmm...about tt ans from him..hahahaz...so glad i noe it now...cos of smth..and no nd open my mouth oso noe le..its juz as i guessed or shld i say sensed...hmm...no feel...no chemistry...hmm...noe him so long le...seems we r more like gd frens..hmm...and suddenly knowing it made me feel alot better..cos i said i was giving up..hmm..and now i noe le..i can gif up wif a lesser "burden"....hmm...and i thnk nvm le lahz..i prefer to be alone..single..hmmm...so i m free for my family and frens...hmm....since i dun like to be tied up too...hmm..actualli is cos mi and him chatted over smth...tts y i know le...hmmm..and its juz simply smth similar but was better den wat i went thru...juz smth tt is shared between us...hmmm...juz like gd frens...hmmm...chatting was already smth gd..and now i guess tired lahz....so suan le lorhz...hahahaz...(=
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