Thursday, January 12, 2006
hohoho~~today i slpet till 11 plus...and was staring at the ceiling..suddenly my fone rang..i saw the number and was so excited...cos its from sister jing jing..hahahhahaha...and oh yeah...at last i m out of the waiting list...nxt wk...on wed..i will be admitted at 9am sharp...hmm...and i will be getting the 6 days chemo on tt very day and on the 27th..transplant...hmmm...so glad its my turn..i hate to wait...and if everything goes smoothly and i recover fast...hmm...i get to go to school this yr..hope everything goes well...so peeps...pray for me!!!!hahahz..very high today..cos of the call frm sister jing jing...actually i muz thank the person who rejected this place for the transplant...he/she wants to celebrate new yr den go for transplant..so i gt the place...thanks alot..hahaz...(=....so happy...and first thing was tell everyone...i jumped out of bed and shouted to my mama...and msged sis and bla bla...hahaahaz....den on my com..and saw stella and told stella..and bla bla...lolz....today i smy lucky day...actually yst "morning"..i had a nightmare...lolz...i dreamt of sister jing jing calling...and telling mi my transplant will be in april..and omg..i woke and phew...and den she called and YEAH!!!!hahahaz...hmm...happy happy happy...lolz...hmmm...really hopes everything will go well..and soon i will be in court again..running up and down playing...lolz...and once again...i will be back at the pool table playing pool wif my frens..and oso wif sis and jie fu..ahahhaahz...hahahahz...hahahahaz....and by the time i m okie if everything goes well...yeah...its april and its a even more joyous time...cos i will be turning 18 soon...ahhahahhahahahaha....yeah..i m going to be 18 le...hahahahahahaha.....lalalalalalalalalalalalalalal~~~~~~~~~~~~hmmm...i m going bonkers over everything...despite this gd news and smth else...making mi so stress..hahahahz...but nvm lahz...this piece of gd news makes mi feel relieve..ahahahah....hmmm....even though i m quite lucky..i am still starting to hate myself...hmm...juz bcos on some things..i m real useless...che di shi bai....haiz...even if tmr is a better day....tmr i m still shi bai...so gt diff ma??no ahz...hmm....maybe i m juz not meant to be involved in some things tt i m into...and i guess life is juz like tt...if u r meant to be able to do it u can..like i m not meant to do it..so i cun...and it means all my life i cun..so i m leaving tt out of my life...hmm...maybe its the right choice...hmm...or maybe shld i say..its definately the right choice to throw tt out of my entire life..live for myself...and do whats for myself...hmmm...
yst de xin li che yan...it says i m 70% zi lian...lolz..and the explaination of the choice i choose is quite accurate for mi....hmm..lolz...i look at the mirror and thnk i m extremely lousy and ugly...and fat...den nxt moment i see myself...eh not bad ma...eyes r okie...nose is okie....mouth looks norm..and overall i m gd..juz nobody xin shang....den nxt moment....what shit is this..y m i so OMG!!...lolz...juz contradicting...and...somehow zi lian..and not at times...so so lahz...but i dun thnk i zi lian..but i oso thnk i m..lolz...watever!!!ahahhaz...who cares....my face is for myself to see...not for my future husband...cos i m not getting married...i want to lead a singlehood life..lolz.....i've gt lots ppl to yang worhz..so singlehood is better for mi..and mei ren yao..so above is to yan shi..hahahahaha....sui bian lahz...hmm...tts all for today...lolz...shabshab shab....(=---love you love you...may i love you...tell me what to do....---cocolat^11
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