Monday, February 06, 2006
today...d10 of transplant..my counts r going up steadily so far...so doctors discharged me...hmm...and suprisingly..i broke the record...i din get any fever since chemo till transplant and so far no fever...which is very shocking to doctors...cos mostly all will get fever...hmm...and my body seems to be reacting well...so tts a gd sign..so now i awsit for d100...which is a guide line to the so called stable condition..the out of danger zone...hmm..but u nv noe lahz...actually a few days ago..this woman who underwent transplant went home okie..but on her d80 like tt...which is a few days ago..she was admitted and passed awy the following day...hmm...so see...life is unpredictable..so i muz really take care of myself..and of cos listen to the dietation..eat what they say and suggest...hmm...i cannot eat outside food...cannot eat cheese...hmm...everything less sugar and less oil..hmm...all food must be very very cooked...100% and like normal cooking time add about 5-10 mins..hmm..so not very nice but still nice...lolz..cos its afterall food ma...hmmm...after so long in tt isolated rm..i missed esp my frens and com...during this days..its was like hell...really suddenly learnt alot of things...and understand everything about life and alot alot..of experience gained....during the worst days..u really feel as if u might die at any moment..and my lungs and heart were not very well functioning...so i m really lucky to actually recover quite fast...hmm...but the process is really life torturing...smth no one understands...hmmm..but its over le ahz..hmm...at least i learnt alot thru this and lots things too...not juz life experiences...hmmm....thanks alot to all who cared for mi...at least thru this i noe who really cares and who are the fake ones...hmmm...but nvm..i assume u all care...u noe whether u did care..so i dun haf to say much...but nvm lahz..hahahaz....hmm...well...to him..: ni gei de yang guang pu zhao jian jian bian cheng shan tian da lei de bao feng yu..i hen nu li de rang ni fa xian wo dan ni de yan li zhi you ta....wo men jian jian shu yuan...mei hao de you yi ye jian jian shi qu...hmm...this is wat i thot today...it zoomed into my mind...but nvm...even though u hurt mi but nvm...i take it...since i fell for u...u din force mi to like u..its mi who is a fool...i admit it...hmm...i juz hope u will take lotz of care...and smile more...i noe how u feel towards her..and i noe i m juz a nobody...hmm...and now everything doesn't matter anymore..i juz hope to get to school...but i will alwayz kip u in my hrt...u will nv be replaced..if u r ever replaced or removed frm my hrt..tt means u hurt mi to thoroughly...and harshly..i hope u wun do tt....hmm... (=
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