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Saturday, March 11, 2006

hmm...okiez..today is a jia lat jia lat day...hmm....

early morning i woke up...to go for a lung function test..den went market to buy ingreidents for my walnut cake and the frosting cream...hmm..so buy buy buy...with mama...and den we went home..den i started baking my cake....while sis cooked fried rice for lunch...delicious....YummY!!!!hmmm..so the cake was done...so the frosting cream...tts the worse nightmare..i never done b4..and i haf to get it donw by today....hmmm...so i made it again and again...as i failed again and again..dampening my mood...and my day...hmm...washed those bowls...and bla bla bla....i washed and washed..and that kitchen floor...i mopped again and again....tiring...so at 2 plus 3..i finally stopped..cos it was really tiring and i was so angry...stupid cream..dunno what went wrong..so i went into my room...and played my cello...practise and tuned it..hmm...den woootss...my mood gt better..so off i go..surfing the net...getting on with the recipes..and lookin at what might have gone wrng with my cream...hmm...so...surf surf surf...and huh..i got it...and at that time it was 4pm le.....so tired...hands were tired...legs were tired...cos baking a cake and doing the cream..stand to make..u nd legs...u beat the flour and eggs...u nd ur hands..its real tiring..especially when i din get enuf slp...hmm...tired tired tired...so *pomp*....onto my bed and snorez........6 plus i jumped out of bed..thnking of the cake again...hmm..so i went to the kitchen grab some drinks and planned my baking..hmm...den had dinner...and mapled awhile..but cun concentrate lahz...kip thnking of my cake...so huh...i took my medicine and zoomed to the kitchen to start all over again...including the cake..i re-baked 2 at a go...in case anything goes wrng...hmm..so the process goes again..and den i let the cake cool...only until it was really cooled...den i started making the cream frosting..so beat beat beat...cook cook cook...and huh...my cream was done...hmm...so put it into the refrigerator and waited till it was cold...*chills*...lolz..den took out and gt my cake spreaded with th cream..and den getting colours..to draw the big carrot...and words...hmm..and te teng....its done...sl's bday cake..hmm..however..i thnk its very ugly..and haiz...no choice..i juz started learning how bake..but sis and mum say...its the thought that counts...and sis say...the carrot is cute..and of cos tmr sl see le will noe how bad i fared...hmm...well...nvm lahz...at least i did what i aimed and planned...hmm...everything went well in the end...hmmm....i succeeded in making the cream....hmm....more time will improve my skills le...hmm..when i can make a really perfect one...i will make a chocolate cake for myself..lolz..i m selfish one...NO LAHZ....its juz that i shld test it myself b4 giving it to others to eat...hmm...

hmm..feeling gulty today...bcos i failed till i went almost bonkers...i shouted like nobody's business..and like a mad woman....nearly wanted to take the knife and chop the cake and everything..first time i felt stress after so long..and i m so sorry to mum..cos i shouted at her...after i calm down..i felt so sorry...i shldn't haf done that...haiz...hmm...but she din scold me...she oso din talked about it..i guess she know i m feeling upset and stress over my failure...hmmm...

hmm..today's cake baking made mi learnt 2 lessons...one of cos is some skills...in baking cake...second is the impt one...failure...and stress and whatever....i shldn't and nv shld i vent my anger like a mad woman...and esp towards my family...hmm...i said to cherish them but i didn't...i shouted...thats a sin...hmm...at least i know what i shld do..so that i m not doing smth that hurts my family...hmm...now i know why over some things..and many too...cos too much happened in a day..besides this cake baking thingy...hmm...

hmm....thats all for today...or shld i say yst...now is am le...lolz...gd morning le...so i shld say yst..lolz...hmm...

amanda & jun:srry for not pei=ing u all chat online yst...i was real busy with the oven..hmm..srry srrry...and aniwaes take care...and june is coming..hee hee..get what i mean?
stel & mei:there'll be a day whereby i treat u both the cake i baked..LOL

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