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Sunday, May 28, 2006

hmm...updating...well...i am still feeling as bad...everyday is a bad day for me...this yr is a bad yr for me...no idea why...nothing seems to go smoothly...

yst..as in friday...went to school...no mc...cos i dun want one...why?because of the maths test..and i got 16/20...when the average seems to be like 18/20...see...there are ppl who fail as well...but...would you compare urself with someone who failed or with someone doing better...hmm...okie..16 is considered good...to most of the ppl...but its only a 10 qns mcq eh...30 hr test...10 mcqs...and i got this..there are ppl with full marks as well...hmm...and bla bla...i dun wish continue...cos i thnk no point...as long as i dun fail any test....as for my sprog test...hmmm...i got 95..highest is 98...i haf no complains for this...and i thnk it will be the best results ever...cos everything is getting harder...meaning more things to remember...hmmm...nxt week there is another sprog test on wed...and on thurs there will be a lab test for project 1...and i missed my class tt day...and no one told me what they did..like izit simply soldering the resistors or need follow the circuit given...okie...den after maths class...we went for lunch...at 10 plus 11...den i went to SEEE office to apply leave cos i mc ma...den went to the staff room to submit the diploma plus form...dunno will get in not...hopefully...den went to bukit batok lib. to do cip....and wow...i went thr to put the ballons up at the children section...climbing the ladder...me climbing...wooo....hmmm...den i rushed home in cab to put my lappy..cos too heavy le...i was so tired...and giddy...so put lappy...rest awhile den went back school again...for wushu training...stretching stretching...and wu bu quan...hmm...the test is coming soon...den after the training end...they celebrated bday for april and may babies..and yeah..did some stupid yet fun things...lolz...and chocolate cake!!!...cos i cough so 2 wks nv touch chocolate...and i simply went mad....lolz...hmm...den club bonding!!!...go clementi supper...actually is my dinner lahz..lolz..reached home at 12 plus i thnk ba...hmm..den did my french homework...cos today nd hand in..den copy DE notes...end up 2 plus 3 den slp...and woke at 8am today morning...

okie...now today...as in saturday...hmm...actually nxt wed is french test so today is make up class...but they last minute cancel test...to assignment...plus presentation...but today class still on...hmm...played bingo using french..its hell...but fun..den off to cip again..wanted grab smth bite b4 going to bukit batok...however i was at the cashier and oopz...i din bring my wallet...shit one lahz..cos i left it in another baggie..and tt auntie at the cashier was lik so bu shuang...so off to lib. to do cip...and stood thr for 3 plus hrs..tired...shelved the books and den stood at the door to give the free gift...cos its customer appreciation day today...everyone can borrow up to 8 books today...hmm..i borrowed a few...knowing i haf no time to read...i still borrowed them...cos i feel like reading...hmmm...den went home...ate and den slept till 10 plus...and watch tv and play com...going slp late again...cos need do tutorial...

its a month...and i am still feeling the same...he is still the same as well...and the froggie tt i used to represent him....something happened...the ribbon finally fell...is it marking the end of everything or is it telling me i shld get over asap...or is it telling me he is changing already..its a brand new him?or...is it not...no idea...i am still hanging it..i am going to wash it...its a meaningful froggie...since the day i went for stem cells..it was with me...just like he was thr for me..now he is gone...since tt day...nv was thr anymore...leaving without telling..so fast so soon....now froggie seems to be leaving me as well...over...O-V-E-R...is it this?...haiz...

i am feeling as stress and unhappy....but i will still smile and laugh as usual...i dun want ppl to come to me asking...and of cos ppl will start saying i am giving them attitude...but i dun deny i am having super bad temper recently..small things can make mi flare up...for no reason...and i get frustrated and angry over myself...and i hate it....i am starting to hate myself...bad bad bad...

tts all for today...and all..off to do work...so slpy...*yawns*...

spwushu ppl :you all rocks rox!!!
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