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Friday, June 23, 2006

hmm..well..its early in the morning...and here i am bloggin...becos of the "suddeness" feeling...why?...hmm...well...i dunno too..just felt like blogging...trying figure out if blogging really was a way to express out and to vent everything on or whatever...hmm..maybe its not true...i thnk its just smth for ppl to see ur life and smth for u to record about ur life...smth like tt?hmm..shld be..or maybe it is...hmm..okiez..tried my best to concentrate to study..but omg..i just cun..i am not in that mood yet..and seems to me that everything is so hard..and its like the end or smth...i am lost...feeling very lost...like lost at a place whr i've nv been too...so dark and lonely..dun seem to be someone out thr understanding how i feel...and i cun blame ppl for not understanding too..i din tell anyone..and i cun and i dunno how to...its smth i dunno how tell ppl...i dunno how describe it...hmm...i'll thnk of a way out myself ba...hmm...

someone whom i felt close to is gone...someone whom i used to tell things to is no longer there...the used to was all gone...so not used to it...u seldom appear...u seldom "appear"...we seldom talk...we haf nth more to talk...hmm...things changed...i went on with my life starting school...and u moved on towards another path..to uni..we went different ways...even though we used to talk alot...nth moved...i am still a nothing..this is not impt..whats impt is...i am just someone whom u find when u are bored and alone...am i that lousy or useless to be only someone for substitute?or nicer..someone who is thr for u when nobody bothers..?hmm...you can steadily ignore everything and anything since tt day...like we nv chatted...hmm...

i shall treat it like the way u did...okie lahz..not pretty..no figure...no looks...no character...and whatever...hmm...this is me to u...hmm...

haiya...just managed to "see"...and we only said like 2 sentence..and tts all...hmm...i haf no idea what happened...hmm..maybe after the incident of her..?hmmm...i thot frens r for life..or i am to naive...well..i believe frens r for life...and tts what i thnk...and what i believe in...hmm...

will update more when i feel like..hmm..

4:10 am

Guten Tag! My name ist Ming Xian.

Ich first cried on 5th April 1988.
[Always 18!!!]

My Trademark ist "LIVE TO EAT!!!"

Ich LOVE to TRAVEL..SPORTS & my beloved cello. Roses are not special to me.Therefore i have the special love for SUNFLOWER,TULIPS & LAVENDAR.

Ich have cravings for food,shopping outing almost ALWAYS..however green peas are not my cup of tea FOR SURE!!! Ich have a dream to become a POWER ENGINEER.