2009!!..how will it be like for me?i hope it will end well cause it started bad..to me its bad..cause many happenings..not the one on 1st Jan..but the one following it..its the 7th day of the year 2009..things are not very right..maybe just my problem..i shld have a new yr resolution..shldn't it be the way i shld be taking..the resolution to become a better psn..i am a lousy psn..after thinking and analysing..i am bad..i believe so..

Changing my temper first is the most impt..i believe i will be successful cause i working on it and its somehow better now..just that i know well that i am under going stress..and not just abit but alot..

Today..i am down..very...emotional..total breakdown...i didn't cry..no worries..cause i must live up to my name..the lively active hyper strong gal..!!!

Saw through some things..trust...i don't know what i said wrongly in the msgs but i just know i was just being truthful..whatever it ends up to be proves to me how that person is like..even though i am a buddhist but what fred told me is true..."you are never alone...cause "he" is always looking out at you and protecting you.."...so i heard this from him and i thot...maybe i shld go to church with him one fine day..and see how its like...even if i am a buddhist..there is no harm to go to other religion to see and experience it..cause you nv know which is truly the one you will end up...

How do people look at me and think of me..i am curious but is it really good to know?or its best to not know...fred told me this..."just treat everyone sincerely and with your true heart and soul"...i am learning too..just like him...how to treat everyone the right way..i hope i am doing the right thing in this now..to everyone around me...i hope i am really doing the change well now..its for you to see but its for my own good too..

Out of curiosity..why do people always say "don't think too much k"...well i said this too..but when it comes to myself..i don't know how to tell myself this...and i think its a lie to yourself..cause you know well that to not think is hard..if you can its temporary..cause you force it..that applies to me..so i am lousy..?no no..i don't like to be names as lousy..i want to be strong..tts what amanda said about me.."you can cause you are stronger than many.." i don't see myself that way but i tell myself i will and i am...its ositive and good way?well..its somehow or rather maybe tested on me just that i nv realised it?hmm..

Ah..sis told me today that the fone i want change is out at lg shop..maybe i shld head down one day to take a look..hmmm..

Hmm..its time for food again..mummy craving for kfc so we ordered...haha...((=

I am fine alrdy my dearest friends..i just moved on (=...cause i am back to normal for today..MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

SMile..yea..i know that..lastly..i thank jonathan..my "dearest" classmate for 3yrs..cie mate...wss mate..fyp mate..and blabla bla...you are really a good friend who is worthy of..!! (=