hurt badly..its so painful that i cant study..online lecture is on...i hear nth...except myself crying away..going thru once again...it hurts more..and its killing me...health is alrdy down...all the empty promises..all the hopes that were given were just a tool to make me be dumb...a fool for months...all my wishful and naive thinking..all the lies that i trusted so much...

and i am suppose to be ur fren..and act as if nth happened..that i am fine when i am crying hard now......what am i suppose to do....i said everything...i told u everything...i gave up on my ego and said everything..and ur ans was that i am stupid....

maybe all the while its all onesided...all the things u said were my imagination...

nv knew i would hate the sight of food...nv knew i hated myself this much...nv knew i am so lousy and useless....hopes gastric kills me instantly...so i will nv be seeing u...this would make u happy..i dont mind...